Life Hurts

I had once believed love was going to be okay between me and this one guy i had always dreamed about but one day we both got into a huge argument and he would hit me so badly that i would cry and said, " I WISH YOU WERE DEAD AND I WISH I NEVER MEET YOU!" my heart started breaking in half and tears were streaming down my face just thinking how painful to see him stand there looking hurt at me. I wish i disappeared to the different world where i belong and then everything would be okay. so then i felt scared enough to scream but i held it back so then he walk out of my life.
one day, i was hanging out with my friends in the school until i saw the ambulance drove past us and i realize Alex's mother was following them so i panic and realize it was my Alex. i thought oh no please don't be Alex, i can't lose him. so then i put my coat on and ran down the rode even i didn't care if the school called my mother adn tell them that i just skip school so it didn't matter much anymore. i kept running and my legs were hurting, my heart was breaking and bleeding of sadness. i wanted to die right now if it was Alex who is dying
at night, he was laying in bed and told me that he was going to be die somehow even the doctor say so. i started crying and said, "please don't leave me Alex i need you more than ever". he begin to breath funny and i started sobbing just blaming everything on me. he was smiling up at the ceiling and said, " i forgive you and i can see god's face right now". i didn't know what to say but smile, i was sort of happy that he forgive me until then he closed his eyes and disappeared out of the world that he didn't belong in so then he was dead. nothing can ever change that and then it got worse for me the most.
a couple days later, it was over the pain was gone and now Alex was up there in heaven with his grandparents who he never meet and always wanted to meet him so i went to the graveyard and there he was laying on the ground with nobody to hold anymore, laugh with, cry with, even it was hard. so then i sat down and put the roses on the top of his gravestone and i said, " i'm sorry Alex and remember this i will always love you no matter what". so then i walk away from the graveyard and had never came back to the end. Alex Angel rest in peace...